i may be a tad-bit cynical today

and for all those who have to encounter my cynicalness today i apologize.

bad breath grosses me out. and even more gross then bad breath is a person with bad breath that smells up the whole room with their bad breath. i should put a box of free gum on the counter.

i have come to realize that dating is idiotic. it is awkward and not fun! who ever said it was, they lied. the couple "dates" i have gone on have been guys that i kind of known, however i didn't really want to go to begin with. see i have a hard time saying no, i feel bad, even when i was dating brian i had a hard time saying no. not because i wanted to go on dates with these guys, but because i didn't want to hurt anyones feelings. i am pretty sure this didn't make brian very happy, and i think i should work on this so my future husband doesn't have to deal with my stupidity. yet i refuse to date from now on so maybe i won't meet my future husband.

another thing that i am feeling particularly cranky about is guys who try to play the friend card with girls they like. i really hate it when you tell a guy you just like him as a friend and he says he is happy just being friends with you. but in his head he is thinking eventually you will like him if he plays the "friend card" long enough. news flash, it usually just makes her mad and annoyed. if you are "just friends" with a girl. do not call her 3 times a day asking why she won't call you back. don't text her repeatedly (she might turn her phone off), and don't get jealous if she hangs out with other guys because she is not your girlfriend, nor does she want to be. (wow i am a bit more cranky about this then i thought, maybe i need some coffee)

ok, so on to a happy note.

this past weekend i went to see thunderbird motel (brian's band) and thee emergency. with rachel, lindsey and my room-mate nathan. both bands were awesome. i really love thee emergency despite the divaness that they have, and i have always liked thunderbird motel. but it is so funny my room-mate loves tbm so much! brian gave me on of their cd's and i actually haven't seen the cd since i brought it home. nathan says quote "i am so stoked for their next show!"

we are pretty much dancing machines!

another happy note. lorenzo moved back up to seattle. so sunday we are going to hang out downtown and then go to church. i miss that kid.